Music, Sex and Poetry

I was sitting on the kings road Chelsea London two days ago having pizza when one of the people on my table said he had received two texts that Micheal jackson had died. It was strange as I got on the tube everyone was talking about it. Like the King is dead. I personally feel very sad about his death. He was one of the greats. despite his weird life of the last years, I feel a lot sympathy i can only imagine how it must have felt to be facing this massive come back Gig. Your Micheal Jackson, your bankrupt !!! You gotta do 50 shows, age 50 and blow the whole damn world away. Just thinking about that much pressure is enough to give anyone a heart attack let alone actually doing it. Its a tough game the game of entertainments. People gambling large amounts of money on your ability to come up with magic...and lets be honest Micheal gave us magic and pure genius many times in his life. He was the king, so the only person he was up against was himself...ah the awful pressure, to be bigger and bigger and bigger. And I guess with all the rumours of child molestation over the last few years I imagine....he really wanted to win back his popularity. But you know the more I work in entertainments the more I realize a huge part of the gig is physical stamina. I imagine the strain on him facing 50 shows. He probably needed too do it to cover his debts. Then you know entertainers like him are perfectionist...I imagine the horrible self loathing if he wasn't as fast as he used to be. You suffer from your own expectations and then everybody Else's, where is the space to just be a human being in all that. Its a high stake, high risk game. entertainments. Its tough too be the king. I was once told by a famous actor, you better know your demons if you want too be successful....because if you don't they will over take you when the pressure gos on. Given the right blend of pressure anyone can take a dive....who can imagine the insane pressure poor Micheal was under, it must have been enough to make him feel like checking out. I guess the native Indians believe we choose at our birth when and how we will die. He needed to be the King he wanted to go out as the best in the world and if he wasn't going to be brilliant, I think he would rather not be !!! His career was amazing, his music changed the world. God bless you Micheal, you were so very loved...I hope you know that now. I hope you can see the world mourning your death and know you will always be one of the greats. I think its very sad that no where on the earth was a person who could talk him off the ledge. But dynamic people are like intense energy Fields, they feel there own destiny and live accordingly....He was just under too much pressure it broke his Heart !!! I would say....god bless his family who must feel such sadness at this time.

A really surreal day in the life of a rock singer....I got sick as a dog two days before shooting my album cover. I ran of to see my rock n roll doc for a B shot saturday morning however it was inevitable I was going down. Sunday was the worst day, I said to my team "sure you want me too do this ?" Alas 12 people had been booked for the shoot on monday morning, I had to be there looking great...it was bound too be, from that moment a test of will power. This business is a lot about that....How much do you want it !!! So when I did the maths and realized how much my record label would loose if I was a no show !!!...there was no option, but too take some Sudafed and do the best i could. Over the last five months of producing my new album there have been some moments that have tested every ounce of strength and patience in me. However I must say one of my best vocals ever was sung on Bronchitis !!! So much as I wanted to say "no way guys...i dont feel like a rock goddess today"...there was not too much option.
I arrived at 9 in the morning...the studio was full, everyone was excited...even James, who is the director of my new reality show "The Zoe Show" was there armed with camera.....Robert Ferrone on a bright white back drop....looked very slick... very much the world class photographer....with his crew of two assistants, and then fabulous Linda Medvene ,stylist, and her assistant had a room full of beautiful clothes... and John Granados on hair and make up and his assistant.... Now normally I would be like ,Great loads people...to make me look beautiful !!!...cameras, LOVE IT !!! but I was "holy shit how the hell am I getting through this day" !!! The Sudafed zonked me out, i was practically sleep walking....and Robert was like "what the hell did you take honey" !!! But a very strange thing happen about 2 in the afternoon, a wonderful tailor called Estivan made me this leather dress and at a certain point i was up against a mirror wearing this leather dress and i started too sort of break on through, like come alive...everyone was standing around and they were like wow beautiful...and from there on I was home !!! not sure if the Sudafed wore off....it was surreal. I just started to feel O.K....So then Robert and I got too it !!! i through on some skinny jeans and a leather jacket, and perched in front of a big window with my white stratocaster.....ahhhhh that's me !!! thats who I am these days...Low maintenance girl with Big ambitions !!! Yeh for about five hours the team locked it in and got great shots.....It was like some kinda miracle, like the clouds parted...and in came the sunshine...I particularly liked the last Shots, which I really just did for fun...I said hey guys these are for my house !!! I through on some lacy underwear a big fake fur leopard coat and got a guitar to strategically cover my naughty bits !!! I croached down one leg straight out...long black suede boots. I love those shots thoroughly Iconic...and a long way from where the day began. Robert said Wow your just warming up !!!....we went full circle on that shoot as a team. It was great end to the day, something really miraculous happened that DAY. i BROKE ON THROUGH !!! I guess i'm learning how much faith and will power it really takes to be the best I can be. At what I am doing, the stretch on this new record is really amazing.... It was a really soulful day in the end and I felt like a star...my own brand.... a bit rock n roll...a bit bomb shell...a bit of a rebel....but always surprizing, mostly too my self!!!

I just wanted to tell anyone who might be interested. That their will be another songwriters rendevous starting on june 14th...her in Los Angeles. The last Songwriters Rendevous was really marvelous.... Susan Koc introduced us too a dizzying array of world class talent, both production and songwriting. We got to be mentored by world class songwriter Shelly Peiken, we spend time with a wonderful selection of producers....Eve Nelson...Xandy Barry...Rob Wells. It was perfect every week myself and partisipants Chris carter, Victoria Scott and Blake. Received a rigorous critique from susan !!!....by candle light, which softens the blow !!! but I have to say if there is one person I need to say a big thank you too for my new album...Its Susan who Really supported and drove the process of me writing this new album...I would happy to turn any songwriter or artist that wants to up there game on too wonderful Susan Koc and the Songwriters rendevous...Love Zoe

So having come straight off the back of making my new album...as yet untitled. We will be shooting my album cover very shortly. Its an interesting process thinking about what an album cover should be...for me I decided more than it being about clever ideas and concepts. I really just wanted it too be about how I'm feeling about life !!!...being an artist my songs..So it will be somewhat of a portrait shoot. With wonderful photographer Robert Ferrone, who has been so kind to me. Robert is an amazing fashion photographer but his edgy style lends itself too Rock n Roll...and I'm really looking forward too being photographed by him. You wouldn't believe what its takes to put a shoot together...and the last 10 days have been a flurry of meeting with some world class creative talent. We came up with also sorts of funny ideas before we decided too keep it simple...someone said something about naked Italian men in the background and someone said we could do the answer to the Janet Jackson hands over the boobs shot... and that's the hands over another part of my body shot !!! Anyway its been a roller coaster all the way making this album....I grew up during the process. but wonderfully excited about the whole thing. Thanks too the whole team, especially Zeus records and Victoria Scott... Love Zoe