Music, Sex and Poetry

A really surreal day in the life of a rock singer....I got sick as a dog two days before shooting my album cover. I ran of to see my rock n roll doc for a B shot saturday morning however it was inevitable I was going down. Sunday was the worst day, I said to my team "sure you want me too do this ?" Alas 12 people had been booked for the shoot on monday morning, I had to be there looking great...it was bound too be, from that moment a test of will power. This business is a lot about that....How much do you want it !!! So when I did the maths and realized how much my record label would loose if I was a no show !!!...there was no option, but too take some Sudafed and do the best i could. Over the last five months of producing my new album there have been some moments that have tested every ounce of strength and patience in me. However I must say one of my best vocals ever was sung on Bronchitis !!! So much as I wanted to say "no way guys...i dont feel like a rock goddess today"...there was not too much option.
I arrived at 9 in the morning...the studio was full, everyone was excited...even James, who is the director of my new reality show "The Zoe Show" was there armed with camera.....Robert Ferrone on a bright white back drop....looked very slick... very much the world class photographer....with his crew of two assistants, and then fabulous Linda Medvene ,stylist, and her assistant had a room full of beautiful clothes... and John Granados on hair and make up and his assistant.... Now normally I would be like ,Great loads people...to make me look beautiful !!!...cameras, LOVE IT !!! but I was "holy shit how the hell am I getting through this day" !!! The Sudafed zonked me out, i was practically sleep walking....and Robert was like "what the hell did you take honey" !!! But a very strange thing happen about 2 in the afternoon, a wonderful tailor called Estivan made me this leather dress and at a certain point i was up against a mirror wearing this leather dress and i started too sort of break on through, like come alive...everyone was standing around and they were like wow beautiful...and from there on I was home !!! not sure if the Sudafed wore off....it was surreal. I just started to feel O.K....So then Robert and I got too it !!! i through on some skinny jeans and a leather jacket, and perched in front of a big window with my white stratocaster.....ahhhhh that's me !!! thats who I am these days...Low maintenance girl with Big ambitions !!! Yeh for about five hours the team locked it in and got great shots.....It was like some kinda miracle, like the clouds parted...and in came the sunshine...I particularly liked the last Shots, which I really just did for fun...I said hey guys these are for my house !!! I through on some lacy underwear a big fake fur leopard coat and got a guitar to strategically cover my naughty bits !!! I croached down one leg straight out...long black suede boots. I love those shots thoroughly Iconic...and a long way from where the day began. Robert said Wow your just warming up !!!....we went full circle on that shoot as a team. It was great end to the day, something really miraculous happened that DAY. i BROKE ON THROUGH !!! I guess i'm learning how much faith and will power it really takes to be the best I can be. At what I am doing, the stretch on this new record is really amazing.... It was a really soulful day in the end and I felt like a star...my own brand.... a bit rock n roll...a bit bomb shell...a bit of a rebel....but always surprizing, mostly too my self!!!