Music, Sex and Poetry

I was sitting on the kings road Chelsea London two days ago having pizza when one of the people on my table said he had received two texts that Micheal jackson had died. It was strange as I got on the tube everyone was talking about it. Like the King is dead. I personally feel very sad about his death. He was one of the greats. despite his weird life of the last years, I feel a lot sympathy i can only imagine how it must have felt to be facing this massive come back Gig. Your Micheal Jackson, your bankrupt !!! You gotta do 50 shows, age 50 and blow the whole damn world away. Just thinking about that much pressure is enough to give anyone a heart attack let alone actually doing it. Its a tough game the game of entertainments. People gambling large amounts of money on your ability to come up with magic...and lets be honest Micheal gave us magic and pure genius many times in his life. He was the king, so the only person he was up against was himself...ah the awful pressure, to be bigger and bigger and bigger. And I guess with all the rumours of child molestation over the last few years I imagine....he really wanted to win back his popularity. But you know the more I work in entertainments the more I realize a huge part of the gig is physical stamina. I imagine the strain on him facing 50 shows. He probably needed too do it to cover his debts. Then you know entertainers like him are perfectionist...I imagine the horrible self loathing if he wasn't as fast as he used to be. You suffer from your own expectations and then everybody Else's, where is the space to just be a human being in all that. Its a high stake, high risk game. entertainments. Its tough too be the king. I was once told by a famous actor, you better know your demons if you want too be successful....because if you don't they will over take you when the pressure gos on. Given the right blend of pressure anyone can take a dive....who can imagine the insane pressure poor Micheal was under, it must have been enough to make him feel like checking out. I guess the native Indians believe we choose at our birth when and how we will die. He needed to be the King he wanted to go out as the best in the world and if he wasn't going to be brilliant, I think he would rather not be !!! His career was amazing, his music changed the world. God bless you Micheal, you were so very loved...I hope you know that now. I hope you can see the world mourning your death and know you will always be one of the greats. I think its very sad that no where on the earth was a person who could talk him off the ledge. But dynamic people are like intense energy Fields, they feel there own destiny and live accordingly....He was just under too much pressure it broke his Heart !!! I would say....god bless his family who must feel such sadness at this time.