Music, Sex and Poetry

You know, more and more these days I feel there is something quite beautiful about innocence. You go through life and you can so easily lose yourself along the way, but you know in the end, what is true and real for us is what really sticks and what nourishes our lives. So many turns of the wheel...there are so many crossroads and moments where we can give up what is profound and important to us, but what we really care about really says a lot about who we are. Society does ask us to switch off in some ways and not feel too much. Hey man...be cool....no connection! Luckily, being an artist, I get to express my feelings through my creativity. Less and less I feel the need to spend time with people who are asking me to stitch myself up and not be able to express how I feel. There's an innocence to expressing yourself...some sort of profound belief that we exist in an all-loving universe, and that somehow the universe will support our feelings. So innocent belief is important. Belief in a dream, or a connection to someone you love. I've never met a happy person who was totally jaded. It is the native indian belief that after a battle, one must return to innocence. They call this "washing off the blood." My connection to my creativity and the wonder I find as I create new art is a beautifully innocent pleasure, and it stems back to my connection to my creative self as a child. My mother, being an art teacher, would have me and my sister sit for hours painting and drawing, and my sister and I still do this...except now with songs. There is an innocent wonder for me when i see a genius guitar play, like Tim Pierce, play when we are writing. Where there is a wow factor, there's probably creative magic, but you have to believe in order to create anything. And innocence is definitely an ingredient. Protect YOUR innocence, the bit of you that is soft and fleshy and lovely.

Walking in the rain though a pedestrian center on Saturday, there was a guy standing on a pedestal shouting "YOU ARE ALL GOING TO HELL! IF YOU DO NOT REPENT, IF YOU DO NOT FOLLOW THE 10 COMMANDMENTS, YOU ARE ALL GOING TO HELL!" I thought about it...quite honestly I couldnt believe him. I find this a really outdated way of seeing things. First of all, with all this beauty on the earth, I can't believe God would be anything but all-loving. Seriously, this idea of Heaven and Hell is harming the planet, cause hey, if we dont wake up and consider the Earth heaven, we will all go to hell by destroying it. Ya, I believe we live many lives, and I feel like there's a thin veil of consciousness which stops us from realizing how many times we've been here before, but this is a beautiful Earth. When we are here, it should be preserved for whoever's coming next. The native Indians say we borrowed the Earth from our grandchildren, and I do find the Native Indian spirituality the most reverant towards the Earth. Growing up with a love for Nature, I can't imagine following any kind of religion that makes me feel like I'm saving up brownie points to get somewhere better. My spirituality has become profoundly based on the idea that the more present I am now, the more I'll be able to just be a channel for light and love and good vibrations. For me, doing yoga is equally as spiritual as going to church, or sitting, looking at the ocean. There are many ways to feel close to something higher. When I do connect to my all-loving creator, I'm sure he's not saying "hey, do it MY way or youre going to Hell" Do we need a creator who has a wrath? Do we need the man standing on the soapbox screaming "Youre all going to Hell if you dont repent!?" I think being with our creator is all about feeling good, and a realm of possibility far beyond fear and anxiety. Next, this guy on the soapbox started shouting "If you lust after women, you are a sinner, and you're going to hell for that as well!" You know, for the pagan religion, sex was a spiritual act, a way to get closer to God and to the life-force. Actually, being turned on by someone can be a hugely inspiring experience. It's kind of part of who we are. The whole immaculate conception myth seems a little off to me. Although, I do believe in channeling sexual energy into creative and spiritual acts, I think sex is a natural part of being a human being. Religions that breed intolerance and division and fear I think are quite outdated at this point. We live in a world that is getting smaller and smaller, and we need to embrace the idea that we are one World Family, that God is an all-loving force, and therefore we are each all-loving forces in the world. Today, I picked up a mug in the coffee shop that had a Ghandi quote on it: "We must become the change we wish to see in the world." Of course, it's not every day that we feel like perfect bubbles of enlightenment, but we can all aim for something higher. And if it comes to picking up a gun or a flower, I'd far sooner pick up a flower. I think younger and younger generations are picking up a baton of internationalism with, for instance, all the countries in Europe now being a part of the European Union. This just shows that merging and acceptance is becoming much for fashionable than division and difference. We all have one thing in common: we are all human beings, and we all have experienced in some way or another, the universal force of love. Each day we create Heaven or Hell within us, and each encounter with another human being is just a lesson. How we see things is all important. I believe we're all going just where we want to go.

You know its late....way past my bedtime.. Ive been in a writing session all afternoon and I should be getting my beauty sleep...so what am I doing up at this hour. Typing away on myspace? it leads me to ask the question is Myspace addictive? and if it is..is it a good addiction or a bad addiction ? what do we all get out of it ? What are the Positives and the negitives? For an Indie artist obviously its a great way to get your music out. I love that we get to freely communicate, with each other all over the world. As John Lennon said "Imagine a country with no borders, and no religion too'' So maybe this is the virtual Eutopia we have all been waiting for. I am always amazed at how much love and support I receive over the web...takes the edge of..writing a record in a void. So what do you say are you addicted and what are you gettin out of it? and what would you change about it? What are the most postive things we can use it for? ...Good night Zoe

At the end of last year I was in New York on the phone to my X....I was giving him a hard time and he suddenly got really frantic and said ''why are you pissed of with men''. I thought how strange can he be right? Then I went out for supper with another male friend and he said, you know what Zo. I was really upset when you got angry with me this year...''I was just tryin to help you''.
So I had to think about it, Two of my favorite men in the world said I was an angry woman. I've always loved men....so what went wrong I thought...when did I become a man hater!!!! As we went into 2008 I had this feeling that this was a really amazing year for relationships and creativity. So I decided to take a very different tact with the men I Love !!! I decide that the only way was to Love and support all the magic creative men I encounter....for we are just reflections of each other. I decide I felt best when I was in total harmony with both my male and female side. Men are such fun......Last year I met some stunningly gorgious men and I wandered to myself did I leave them all feelin like I was pissed off with them!!! Damn... So I want to announce to the Male species.....come out from hiding....I am no longer the goddess Kali...I've gone back to being my good old self, much closer to goddess Aphrodite....who loves to have fun. You know the one who writhes around in the foam...he...he.... Actually the reason I have not written too many of bitting blogs recently is because I really got bored of the old Zoe and wanted to be reborn as the new. Also the business of creating an album is inherently a marriage of both male and female aspects .... you got get out of your head and out of thinking in duality...else you write in cliches.....music is a feeling sensual universe ....hey and sorry to any of my guys, I rubbed up the wrong way... I'll make it up to you in 2008

One of my all time favorite movies is "THe BronX Tale'' Starring Chazz Palmintari directed by Robert Deniro. For those of you who have seen it, Chazz Palmintari actually wrote it. It is the True story of his growing up in the bronx and his relationship with a powerful mentor figure Sonny a mafia boss. It is an amazing story, profound full of wize messages and incredible insights into life. I went to see it before Christmas and was just blown away by Chazz Palmintari's Genius it is a one man show and he plays all the characters, as he did back before it was a movie. That is the way Deniro saw it and agreed to turn it into "Bronx Tale'' the movie.
I Love the story also behind the making of the movie...the story go's many studios wanted to buy the rights to the movie however they would not allow Chazz to write the script and play Sonny. Chazz bravely hung out for his destiny and sure enough Deniro showed up and did the right thing....the rest is history.
The Show is simply magical, poetry in motion...it will blow your mind to see Chazz playing himself as a young boy and then his father and then Sonny in the same 60 seconds. A Show like this happens once in a blue moon so if you are in New York go see it before it ends on the 24th of Febuary...I promise you, it will move you and make you appreciate life a little more.......

I just got Sheryl Crows new album and loved the sardonic folkie protest song "God Bless this Mess'' I really am happy to here so many great artist giving voice to there disenchantment with the way things are going in the world. I saw Pink on Utube with here song to President Bush powerful stuff. I need to go buy Lenny Kravitze album "LOve Revolution tomorrow. I love 60s music as you can tell by the psychedelic sounds on my album. I really thought it was amazing the way the young artist in the 60s protested so bravely against everything that was going on. So Im really happy to see all this movement. As I'm writting and workin on a new album it gives one a sense of purpose to give voice to what you feel about whats going on in the world. I hope I can be as powerful and passionate as Pink and Sheryl Crow. Bravo ladies you rock....and only Lenny would have the soul to say we need a love revolution because we really do....what do you say shall we make it happen!!!!!

Ah are you out under the dark side of the moon did you see it. How mystical looking out through the trees over the mountains. I watched the eclipse of the moon. I imagine back in the day when Paganism was the first religion we would all probably be out dancing and banging drums or drinking a wild brew, or having mystical orgies or something. So I guess the eclipse is the shadow of the earth on the moon........the moon normally being lit by the sun. I always feel like the sun and the moon are the most beautiful symbols of male and femaleness. As I walked up the hill thinking about the moon shining with the light of the sun, I thought what a romantic extrodinary thing. The moon is lit up by the love of the sun......woow the pure harmony in nature, Imagine what we are capable of when we are in Harmony. We all have the potential to be lit up like that big old moon. There is a different energy in the air tonight very mystical and enchanted. WE all have a beautiful Silhouette on this earth...imagine someone who perfectly matches our vibration. It is really up to us whether we meet them in this lifetime. The next Eclipse of the moon will be in 2012, I wander where this earth will be by then...I wander if there will still be a war in Iraq...I wander if we will have become anymore enlightened as a race. I love the energy of the moon. The Moon has been a great guide to me, I danced under the moon all the way to California. I can remember being in the mountains of Spain on a vision quest with my sister, we would dance under the Full Moon and I would say to the moon which way now and the moon would say California......powerful stuff. Feel the energy tonight its very different....An Eclipse of a full Moon

To go on your own beautiful magical journey of self-discovery as a woman is the ultimate gift to yourself. To discover your own sensuality, your passions, your hidden depths, and even to know your own demons. So much of our society's myths focus on the story of the hero...but ladies, let us tread our own magical patth, the one that takes us to a place where we know we are powerful and magnificent and of great value. Let us feel nourished firstly by our own selves, and then those we choose to have around us. Discover the elements that take you back to feeling like a wild woman on an adventure of a lifetime. Is it the fire, the moon? Is it wandering in the darkness of the night? Over the last couple of years I've spent a lot of time with some pretty powerful female healers, and the most important thing I've learned from them is to value myself, to let my intuition be my guide. The more I love myself, the more I feel I have to give. The magical journeys take us to places where we discover our true strengths and our true magic. I love places which are sensual retreats for the feminine.
Last night I was on a yoga retreat out in Topanga Canyon, tucked away in the hills in a warm sensual environment, the candles flickered and I practiced yoga blindfolded. All I could hear was the voice of my teacher. All I could smell was the incense burning. It was extraordinary to move into these beautiful yogic positions without being able to see what I was doing. All I could feel was my own energy, and it was simply wonderful. I could feel that I am totally woman, as I put my hands on my hips I thought How Wonderful! I felt like it was extraordinary, like giving myself a big hug, I could feel my own gentle energy as I moved, and I thought "How wonderful to be hugged by me!"
There are so many journeys of self discovery that you can take....choose one that your intuition guide you towards and enjoy it!
...and the rest is HERstory!

Ah, Valentine's is one of my favorite days...and so it is...the celebration of love! Being a lover all the way, and enjoying nothing more than the sensual pleasures of the flesh and the spirit cause let's face it...we all believe in sacred sex, right? The archetype of the lover is one of my personal favorites. The sensual exploration between two people as they surrender to each other their gifts. As we gently fall in love, the excitement to see the face of someone you adore, the extraordinary pleasure of making love to someone you have such wonderful chemistry with, you're sure you just experienced Nirvana...
What can I say, folks? I'm sold! I'm a lover for life!
Now the native indian medicine for attraction is skunk medicine. So I dont know if we should all go out and dab a bit of skunk odor on us, but any which way, get out and grab some love this week! Whether you're in love with someone else or with yourself, dress in red, take long hot sensual baths, tell saucy stories, put your high heels and a good pair of jeans on, a cute t-shirt, and go and see who's out there. Or, alternatively, find a great dance with a bunch of other freaks on Thursday night and just dance because it feels good. If you're not in love, I have a Valentine's day gift for you. This is what I suggest you do: light a candle in the evening and start imagining your ideal soulmate in every detail. The more details the better! Practice doing this over and over again, and sooner or later for sure you'll find him or her in your bed. This is my love medicine for your valentines day!
Yours lovingly,
Zoe